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Nov 28 2009 12:55 pm
J, Not a day passes when i'm not thinking about you!!
Today is becky's 19th Birthday =( its such a hard day for alot of us.
Watch over us!!
miss you loads
Shaz xxxx
Nov 21 2009 04:58 pm
Fortyfive months today - crazy xxx
Nov 17 2009 09:20 am
More days, weeks, months pass by - still we miss you. Will love you always x
Nov 1 2009 08:14 pm
Bon Jovi are on TV, i wish you could watch it. Stay close angel, we miss you, bex x
Oct 29 2009 11:03 pm
This is so hard - love you x
Oct 21 2009 06:51 pm
Forty four months today - miss you - love you always - take care and stay close x
Oct 14 2009 07:39 pm
Sorry I havent written to you in ages buddy, everythings changing, doesnt mean i'm not thinking of you and missing you though.
I cant believe its been so long, it seems so close since we spoke, but when I look back I was still at school. I've finished college now, on a gap year and moving on to uni next year. Scary hey?
Stay close J, i miss you, i wish i could still feel you x
Sep 24 2009 05:15 pm
Hi J,
Another month has come and gone, Summer is nearly over and Christmas will soon be here - life seems to have speeded up again. It is now over three and a half years since you left us, there is such pain in my heart and a hole in my life - how I wish things were not like this. May we meet again in heaven one day - I will always love you - Mum xxx
Sep 16 2009 11:44 am
Ahh Jamie,
Here comes the time of the year i hate the most! Rebecca's 4 year anniversary is next week and soon after yours follows =( it's always tough,
with Christmas meant to be the time of year for happiness, it just seems so hard to think between september and feb i lost 2 of my closest friends =(
I'm going up to see Becky today, because i'm not sure with work, if i can next week..
But just know, everytime i go to see Becky, i leave an extra bunch of flowers for you!
Its very difficult for me to come up to you, so i hope you know that the extra bunch is for you =)
I miss and love you so much!
Look over everyone who cared and loved you!!
Shaz xxx
Sep 13 2009 10:30 pm
Love you boy, where are you - Mum x
Aug 30 2009 08:24 pm
Love you J - M xxx
Aug 17 2009 08:50 pm
back from holiday J,
It was really nice, lost my cousin out there though, please do look after her, i'm sure she'll be keeping a close eye on you.
She had a heart attack on thursday morning after doing her rounds (she was a doctor)... she knew she wasn't well but refused to have an operation as it was likely to leave her paralyzed, so instead of having her mum cope with that she decided to give her life =( selfless but brave.
She is much missed, please look after my nan she is distraught =(
love and miss you lots
Shaz xx
Aug 12 2009 07:11 am
hi J,
We are just back from holiday in Devon and the New Forest. It was good to be away from everyday things. We spent a lot of time near the river Dart, it was very beautiful. Saw a lot of rain as usual but we all managed to keep a smile. On the way back we stopped of at SB where we all spent so much time together. A round every corner I was looking for you on your bike, remembering the happy times we had spent there as a family. Its nice to be home now - lit a candle for you yesterday in the Cathedral - you are always in my heart wherever I go whatever I do. Love you Son - Mum xxx
Jul 29 2009 10:53 am
Off to Sicily in the morning J,
Missing you so much, stay close.
Love you
Shaz xx
Jul 27 2009 09:42 pm
Love you J - M xxx
Jul 21 2009 10:10 pm
Jamie, i miss you so much!!
I'm puppy sitting for a friend of mine at the moment and i know you're lookin over me, every time chica cuddles up to me, i smile and today she was a great comfort... she clearly knew i was feelin a bit down!!
Miss you lots Jamie
Shaz xxx
Jul 21 2009 09:39 pm
Another month - 41 - incredible. Today being a Tuesday seemed to make it even more unbearable. Still expect you to walk through the door, just want to hug you
On Sunday at the Golf Club they held the Jamie Haynes Memorial Day for the juniors. Over 30 youngsters took part, some who still remember you - yet another difficult day but enjoyed by all that took part. I wonder if you watched over it. I am sure you approved of the crystal trophies for the winners with the beautiful pheasant on and your name engraved.
Never will understand this - I love you - Mum xxx
Jul 16 2009 10:09 pm
Hi J,
This has just been such a difficult day. Your 22nd Birthday and the fourth one you've missed. I remember all the happy ones, being in Spain and having a body surfing board, being in the New Forest and also all those football parties with BarBQs to follow. I see your smile, can almost hear you laugh, just wish we had more to share. How I wish we'd celebrated your 18th although you loved the laptop you wanted as a present. Dad and I lit a candle for you and 11 others in Canterbury Cathedral, we put flowers on your bench in Dane John and visited you at our Church today. We all love you, never did we dream this would be how we would spend your birthday after all the happy times of the past. Stay close to your family and friends, you will always be in our hearts. With love always - God Bless my son - Mum xxx
Jul 16 2009 09:52 am
Happy Birthday Angel...
It's going to be such a HARD day =(
Missing you loads!
Love to family, hope you're all well..
love Shaz xxx
I love you Jamie
Jul 6 2009 08:46 am
I really love you J <3 Shaz xx
Jul 1 2009 10:19 pm
I love you J - time keeps on passing but I will never forget you - M xxx
Jun 29 2009 09:13 pm
Hello sweetie, I drove past your old home town today and it made me smile, the sun shone all day and the warmth was perfect, with a gentle breeze. I had an amazing day and remembering something so close to you as i travelled home made my day complete. Dont ever think you've been forgotten, love to you always, stay close, Bex xx
Jun 22 2009 09:03 pm
Oh J,
Another month goes by and we are all still heart broken. We go on but there is that bit missing in all we do. How I wish we had told you how much we loved you and cared for you more and still do. Remember Ann from the cottages, she is with you now, show her how to stay close to those you love. Miss you so much - Mum xxx
Jun 20 2009 05:57 pm
Hi J,
I'm absolutely knackered from a LONG week at work, got 3 days off next week though and its nearly Holiday time =D
I miss you lots and not a day goes by when i'm not thinking of you!!
My uncle passed away last week, He has been suffering for many many years now, His body had given up, yet his heart refused to. I know he's at peace finally, look out for him please =)
Thank you for watching over me!
love you
Shaz xxx
Jun 8 2009 09:01 am
Thanks Shaz - Got it - Morning J, another day without you - Love you son x
Jun 4 2009 09:59 pm
Heya Tina,
Jamie's Myspace is working fine on my side
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=13794594
try that link, hope you're well.
Jamie i love you soo much!! Can not belive how fast time has passed us =(
Love you Shaz xx
May 31 2009 09:45 pm
Hi J,
I know you are really proud of what Billy has achieved - Bill you have done fantastically and also Shaz has been such a star in supporting you and your family on this site and there have been many others out there who have continued to keep your memory a live and still care very much about you. We love you J and always will.
I have been quite distressed that I'm no longer able to reach your myspace site although it had been quite quiet recently there always appeared to be a bit of you there and now its gone. Is anyone else able to reach this site? - I hope it is just my PC being strange.
Another month gone by - can hardly believe it will be your birthday in a few weeks - could still cry forever. Love you always - Mum xxx
May 30 2009 08:42 pm
love you J!
Not a day goes by when i don't think of you!
Shaz xx
May 26 2009 06:04 pm
Hey jamie, it's been a very busy year in the household cavalry:/ I managed to make the Musical Ride and got to ride at the Royal Windsor Horse Show infront of the queen. Cartier polo show comming up and then flying out to Dubai at the expense of a billionaire Arab shiek to perform infront of him ( which is in the news ) lol. The queens birthday parade is in a few weeks, so many rehersals!
Miss you very much x
Billy
May 21 2009 10:51 am
Another month today - I wonder what you'd be doing now - miss you so much x
May 17 2009 10:04 pm
I went to Church this evening where four young people were baptised. The Church was full of love, friendshipa and laughter, how I miss you. Love you always xxx
May 6 2009 09:13 am
Nearly Summer again, and not a day goes by when i dont think, dream or wonder about you.
Love you so much J
Shaz xxx
May 4 2009 08:43 pm
Love you x
Apr 28 2009 04:11 pm
I don't think the pain of losing you will ever leave me, the hurt is constant. I miss you so much, stay close - Love Mum x
Apr 19 2009 08:11 pm
Ohhhhhh how I miss you xx
Apr 14 2009 09:46 am
Happy Easter Baby, hope you're okay.
Missing you trillions.
Love you.
Shaz xxxxxxxxxxx <3
Apr 12 2009 07:49 am
Happy Easter J - miss you x
Apr 11 2009 10:10 pm
Love you J - M xxx
Apr 2 2009 11:35 am
"When a man knows God, he is free: his sorrows have an end,
and birth and death are no more. When in inner union he is
beyond the world of the body, then the third world, the world
of the Spirit, is found, where the power of the All is, and man
has all: for he is one with the ONE."
Svetasvatara Upanishad
Apr 2 2009 09:58 am
Heya J,
Its already April, the daffodils are blooming and the weather is being tempremental - yet not a day goes by when you're not thought off. If only it was possible to turn back the hands of time, even just to spend 1 more day with you!
Missing you Loads!!
Love you. Shaz xxx
Mar 28 2009 02:57 pm
Hello gorgeous, I just wanted to say I havent forgotten you! I havent had much time to be writing to you, but you've been in my thoughts as you well know. There has been so much sadness in my life recently and I can only think that eventually it will pass but the pain will always be there. I feel like i've lost you all over again and keep finding little messages from you, like signs, on old phones, old myspace accounts and so on. Theres so much I wish you could see and I cannot believe its been so long. Please stay close to us and your family Jamie, you're so missed, so so missed. All my love, Bexx xxx
Mar 24 2009 11:06 pm
Love you J - M xxx
Mar 20 2009 10:35 pm
Love you boy - wish you could come back x
Mar 12 2009 10:19 pm
When tomorrow starts without me
and I'm not here to see...
If the sun should rise and find your
eyes filled with tears for me,
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
the way you did today...
While thinking of the many things
we didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
as much as I love you...
And each time you think of me,
I know you'll miss me, too.
But when tomorrow starts without me,
please try to understand...
That Jesus came and called my name
and took me by the hand,
And said my place was ready
in heaven far above...
And that I'd have to leave behind
all those I dearly love.
So when tomorrow starts without me,
don't think we're far apart...
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here in your heart.
Love You Jamie.
Shaz xx
Mar 10 2009 11:13 am
Jamie,
This week is exam week, i'm not confident about them at all, i dont feel i know half as much information as i should =(
I NEED your help & support through these exams!!! Stay with me, look over me and fill my brain with helpful information...
I love you so much!
Stay close. PLEASE.
Shaz xxx
Mar 5 2009 05:15 pm
Hi J,
Monday, 2nd March was a really tough day. Three year anniversary of your funeral, I kept reliving parts of the day and it was very painful. Lots has happened since but nothing can fill the gap you left in my life. I may not look as sad or cry as much, I don't even have as many bad days as I did but that does not mean the hurt is not still there, it just means I've learnt a little how to work round it. The sorrow will be with me always.
In the early days this site with all the messages from your friends really helped me knowing that you were not forgotten and seeing how much you were loved. Now I feel it's time for me to stop writing here, I will always carry you in my heart and pray for you daily. I hope this site stays here for a long time and perhaps some words written here may help other families that unfortunately find themselves in the same nightmare we found ourselves in on that cold February day. I will still 'log on' everyday, in case any of your friends drop by, it's been good to hear how they have been doing over the months.
Thank you to everyone that has left messages here, I hope Jamie has read everyone and knows now much he was/is treasured.
Love you Jamie, so proud you are my son, stay close.
Mum xxx
Feb 26 2009 09:47 pm
Hi J,
It's a Thursday evening, you should have been at football training tonight, even after three years it doesn't matter how much I try and change our routines somethings I cannot forget - life is still very hard without you.
At last your headstone has been placed in the Churchyard. I hope you like it, your dogs, the water, the sunset, your LA wings, our words to you and the cross. I hope the naughty moles do not come and dig all the grass up again, they have not gone - just moved on to new places - them and the rabbits!! At least though neither have touched the carpet of snowdrops that dominate the Church now, everytime I see a snowdrop it reminds me of you as they were all in full bloom at your funeral. I remember only touches of that day but I do remember, the snowdrops, the snow and so many people, who loved you.
I love you Son - stay close - Mum xxx
Feb 21 2009 09:01 pm
Hi J,
Three years today. It's been a tough day for all of your family and many of your friends, so many memories of you and that last day have gone through my mind. Many friends have text and mailed remembering you - everyone has been special for us. We have said prayers in Teynham and Canterbury for you, lit candles and laid flowers - if only there was a sequence of things to do to bring you back - I'd do it no matter how long it took. Three years on and I still wait for you to walk through the door or to wake up from a bad dream - I still cannot believe you have left our earthly life. The word 'why?' will never go away.
Love you forever my son - Mum xxx
Feb 21 2009 05:56 pm
3 years J =(
Its been such a hard day!!
Thinking of you & your family.
Love you.
Shaz xxx
Feb 20 2009 10:08 pm
Love you Jamie, be close to your family and friends tomorrow x
